My First Fickle Thought

For past few days i find many thoughts passing though my mind. I don't know why and from were these thoughts are coming.I always try to find and end no ware. It gos in infinite loop of thoughts.People around me never finds me sad or weak but i know how weak i am. They always say i m different.yes i am different , my thoughts , my feeling my devotion every thing about me is different.I think,  not sharing my sorrows and showing happy face is behind this thinking.
Ops what i m talking about , i say i don't share my sorrow and what i m doing here. Is it my thought or pain ???
Alas i am again there where i have started.